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I am the eldest among 7 children. My father is a very short-tempered person. When I was growing up, he hits me with a belt, a towel, a rattan, or a spanner when he gets mad. One time, he pulled me off the bed in the middle of the night and made me mop the floor of the whole house. Because of these experiences, I grew up having low self-esteem and feeling unloved and not valued.
When I became a teenager, I didn’t want to be manipulated by my father anymore. So I started to talk back when he would scold me. But, the first time I did that, he slapped my face. Then I tried to run away from home but went back on the same day when I realized that I cannot live alone. The next day I fought with my father again but instead of running away from home, I just hid behind our house. I wanted to know if he would care for me enough to find me. But he did not. In fact, he started to beat and scold my siblings. I was very disappointed.
One day, my aunt visited me and shared about God’s love and forgiveness. She prayed for me that God will help me to forgive, love, and respect my father. At that time, I didn’t want to say “Amen” because I knew that to say “Amen” means to agree with her prayer. But to forgive, love, and respect my father was the last thing I would do for I was so angry with him. My aunt insisted that I say “Amen” so eventually, I said it with anger. She didn’t know that it caused me to shut myself off from God. I decided to not pray and trust Him anymore after that.
There’s a verse in the Bible that says “If we become unfaithful, God remains faithful for He cannot disown Himself.” Indeed, God did not let me go. One time, a friend invited me to go with her in a fellowship which she finds the program interesting. I went without knowing what was there. The first that I came, I felt the genuine care, love, and affirmation from the people especially from the youth coach. That kept me coming back for a year! During those times, someone shared to me about Jesus Christ twice, but I readily rejected. True enough, He remains faithful even when I’m not. On March 2004, the same message about Jesus Christ was shared to me again, and after realizing what He has done on the cross and how He showed love through the youth coach and people in the church, I opened my heart and accepted Him as my Savior and Lord.
I experienced changes in my life over the past nine years. Slowly, with God’s love through people, I began to see myself as someone special and valued by God. I started to experience Him as my heavenly Father. That gave me courage to share the same message that I heard to others. I have also learned to forgive my father. However, I am still in the process of putting the broken pieces of my heart together and learning to extend grace to him when he fails me and my family again and again. God’s love alone causes me to love my father more.
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Hi dearest ministry partners! Thanks for praying and financially supporting me!
You know, I went to doctor yesterday and he said I’m recovering speedy, medicine has been reduced! He also encouraged me to continue have positive mind! If weren’t God and your big heart in prayers and financial supports according to God’s promptings, I would not still having sufficient financial and prayer support today. A BIG THANK YOU to God and you!
Now I’m still resting at home, these days have helped me to know my family better and our bonding getting stronger as the days passed. Love, affection and kindness is what I learned deeper in this period with my family. Maybe I’m just repositioned by God as missionary in my family! (P/s: Please read my personal prayed received Christ testimony after this post, then you’ll know my family background).
I praise God for the sermon “From Worry to Worship: Walk in Faith” by Pastor Peter Tan Chi yesterday, it taught me how crucial are emotions and how they could affect me. Praise God the Bible taught me how to walk in faith and worship Him in these resting days. Share with you! May it bless you too!
-God bless my mental health continue to reach full recovery so I could serve in the field soon! (My doctor’s name: Benjamin Chan)
-God bless my family through my presence at home.
-God bless my church through my presence too.
-God bless you continue to walk in faith in this worries world and worship Him.
Thanks for praying with me! Deeply appreciate!
16 Feb 2014 supposed to be an ordinary day, but that wasn’t God intended.
I woke up with an excitement reading Facebook message from Michelle (the girl in the picture below), telling me she has believed in Jesus after my Gospel sharing to her 2 years ago!
“Thank you Mathilda. You told me before if one day I accepted Jesus as my savior, let you know about it.
Actually God has always been there for me, but my faith was weak, I did not surrender to God, I denied Him even when He came to me. But He never give me up. He keeps coming to me, and when I open my heart, finally I could understand Him and experience Him.
Everything is miracle. Things seem impossible are made possible with God. When I allow the Holy Spirit to come to me, again I read the bible, I perceive it in different way, God words seem to be so relevant now. A good news here, I am getting baptized next week.”
Praise the Lord for what He has done while we all have privilege to be in this!
My dear ministry partners,
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” -Galatians 6:9-
Our work in the Lord is not in vain, no matter through prayers, services & financial! I’m so appreciate you have co-journey with me in the last one year! Although it seems hard to reap harvest in this postmodern society, but nothing is impossible with the Lord. So let’s keep doing good & share the light of the Gospel to many who awaiting salvation like Michelle 2 years ago!
Prayer for Michelle:
-Michelle is very passionate with God’s Word, let’s pray for her victorious Christian growth.
-Michelle is now studying in Osaka University, Japan. She is taking BioChemistry in the Malaria research field for 4 years. Let’s pray for her to be the salt and light as excellent & faithful Christian in her field.
All glory & praise be to God!
Let’s pray for God’s people in Sabah will continue to stand firm in their faith, not to embrace temptations but to continually run to God who cares for them!
After resting more than one week in Johor Bahru, I started to find there’s something missing in my life.
This morning as I browsed through Youtube, I accidentally clicked to watch the sermon of Pastor Peter Tan Chi, “Walk in the Spirit: Make It a Habit”. This sermon has awaken me from how I have been view God based on the situation, rather than view situation based on who God is. I repented that I have lived in the past & allowed it becoming stronghold of my life. I repented that I have choose to believe lies of Satan rather the Truth of God.
As a missionary, I constantly shared with the Christians about walking in the Spirit with the “Have You Made the Wonderful Discovery of the Spirit-Filled Life?” booklet. It was just as what Pastor Peter Tan Chi shared. Yet, I’ve forgot to apply this in my own life. Depression, is a long-term consequence of what I have not walked in the Spirit.
I have repented & prayed with my whole heart,
“I will continually walk in the Spirit.
I will make every thought of mine captive in the obedience of Christ.”
Share with you this wonderful sermon, may you be blessed too.
Dear Ministry Partners,
I believed you’ve received a letter regarding my physical & emotion condition, but without details.
I’m here to explain what actually happened in the last few months. As my one of my friend pass away due to commit suicide, I was very emotionally & physically affected. I was diagnosed have depression by counselor & psychiatrist, was confined in hospital for a month in December.
11 January, I was send back to Malaysia for treatment in Petaling Jaya. 25 January, I was send back to Johor Bahru to be with my family to continue treatment here for 3 months.
I’m very sorry of my condition right now could not accomplish the cause you contribute to me as a missionary. But I do need more support (prayer & financial) from you in this hard time.
What you could help is introduce me someone who interested to contribute in prayer & financial. Or you yourself too may let me know if you want to expand your contribution to support me in this hard time.
Thank you of journey with me,
Deeply appreciate your companionship & contribution.
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What a privilege God allowed me to train next generation to share the message of God’s love!
21st – 24th October 2013 was the Juan Dream (One Dream) Leadership Training Institute (LTI) in Camp Benjamin, Cavite. LTI is a platform helped train Christians to share Gospel to who are lost & Follow-Up who are saved. Praise God a professor & 66 students from different campuses joined Basic Level & Intermediate Level of this training!
In 4 days 3 nights, delegates committed themselves in 16 hours training with enthusiasm knowing they were to be equipped to help fulfill the Great Commission in their generation. In each morning devotion & night plenary, their hearts for God & passion for the lost grew intensely. They soared to know God deep. And they were eager to stand at gap for their generation!
After 16 hours training, all of the delegates along with local church leaders streamed to the villages with Gospel. Within 2 hours, we had spiritual with 151 persons, 145 persons were shared with Four Spiritual Laws & prayed received Christ, 71 from them has committed to be follow-up! Praise the Lord for His presence is so real!
There’s so much to be done! Pray for the local church leaders from Asian Christian Charismatic Fellowship will continue passionately & diligently follow-up the people in their community. Pray for the professor & students will carry this torch of Gospel to light their respective campuses & shine for Jesus!